Given the recent situation I've been going through I have needed a support system and friends a lot. But, it is in these trying situations that your true friends really bring themselves to light and you realise the ones worth holding on to and the ones who maybe don't care as much as they say.
I met someone recently who I've known for about a month now who has been a better support system and best friend to me than people I'd met over a year ago and called my best friends. Doesn't this go to show that it isn't necessarily how long you've known someone but who actually proved that they are your friend?
Similarly, friends that I've been close with for months I've taken a step back from and they haven't really seemed to notice or bother at all. I think this is the thing that hurts most. People who I would hang out with a lot, and see multiple times a week don't seem to care whether I exist or not. I also have this really annoying thing where I seem to put all the effort into a friendship all the time and so I distance myself from them and say "I'm not gonna talk until he/she talks" then I just end up upsetting myself. But, if I'm honest, that is upsetting. I always think about the person enough to interact with them but it sometimes seems that its a one way friendship and I'm doing all the work, so if I just stopped...would they even notice?
Basically, I think I just need to lower my expectations of people, and then I won't be disappointed when they let me down because they won't have let me down. If this post made any sense to anyone then great. But, it was more just for me to get thoughts out of my head so it's one less thing buzzing around up there...
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